March 17th, 2020
7:15 AM
It's a new day, we're sitting on the floor again which means I'm not as cold. I have "I Don't Love You" by MCR stuck in my head. We're getting ready to have breakfast, I wonder if we're going to really have to stand for chow. I reread C's letter.7:34 AM
We didn't have to stand for chow. It was really good, and I didn't choke on any part of my meal. I have a weird urge to read last month's entries. I think that's what I'll do when we go on latrine break. I also really quickly need to organize my folder, there's some stuff I don't look at anymore. I hope one day I figure things out. I'm going to write C a letter, I'll write in a little bit.12:15 PM
It's lunch now. I read a little of my journal and I'm going to leave it in my locker during the next latrine break, but I did learn that I really do love E. I don't have to do anything drastic, I should just let tings be. We're next for chow, I'm excited. I'm feeling a lot better since Mr. Mullens class. His class is real fun. We just had lunch and it was real good. It really was. We have English and Math next, which is always fun. Then we get mail. And I can relax for the evening. Next library day, I'm going to get a history or a poetry book. We didn't have hospitality last night due to the corona situation. What a thing to happen while I'm away, I'm not too worried though. That's one of the reasons I'm not gonna see E until August. I wonder how things will be in August. I wonder if anything will change about me, or me and her. The lord only knows. I pray to him a lot, the lord. I caught Mr. Fike, the guy who looks like the antler guy from Sweet Tooth, real off guard when I told him exactly how many people were in the latrine, he said "thank you," like real human like. I was thinking about my noise rock band's name some more. These days have been going by sort of fast.5:07 PM
I have an assumption our platoon is going to eat dinner last. There not much mail on the floor, so I don't think there will be anything for me. I usually just get mail on the big days, when there's lots of mail. I'm still caught up on my homework, next week we're going to work on slope and slope intercept form, so I'm real excited for that. Our teacher Ms. Shaeffer had a baby today. The next progress report ends on 4/9. Which is neat, because not only does it give me something to look forward to, but it'll also be 3 days until the 12th, then we'll only be here two more times on the 12th. On May 12th, it'll be 10 days till second leave and June 12th, we graduate. A day to mark down in history. I didn't get any mail today, but there's multiple factors behind it. E's letters take forever to get here, D might not even get mine, and my mom might not have sent mine until Monday. I don't have the luxury of instant, constant contact anymore. I know people love me, things are just tough. I'm going to split my phone call up on Friday with my mom and E. I miss my family, quite a lot actually. We just got to get through this little bit. Strenous is a real good word. Like I'm not going to be upset all the time or anything, I'm just sort of tired. I'll get through this sadness just fine though. I always do. April will be here sooner than I can imagine. The good news is there's only about one full week left in March.March 18th, 2020
7:30 AM
Today didn't start off too good at all. I went through all the motions and then I remembered that it's been one whole month since I've been home. It clicked inside my brain and I seemed to fall apart. I started crying, I haven't cried in a long while. Mr. Sisler noticed and he called me down, he asked if I had any homework, and I told him I was all caught up, because I really am. He then asked if I wanted to yell to get it out. When I said "yes sir," I saw big grin crawl across his face. I then went outside and yelled, it was a great yell. The greatest yell you ever heard. I asked Mr. Sisler if I could yell again, and with that big grin, he mumbled "sure." Everyone looked confused when I went in, it was a moment of kindness on Sisler's part. I'm having a hell of a time trying to control myself right now.Alright, I have something to write about, I'm cadet of the day, and it's not a pity thing, Mr McCarty was the one who picked me. They didn't ask me about the 8 core components, which sucks, but I still got my goal of being cadet of the day. I get to eat first at all meals, so that's cool.