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March 1st, 2020
9:26 AM
We finally made it. I started writing again. I've got things started so far, both are these types of memoirs that I want to do as spoken word pieces. One is called "heaven" and it's about H. Then the other one is called "To The Sister I Never Met" and it's about my guardian angel. I wanna ask my mom about her but I'm going to have to ask her in person. I'm ready for tomorrow, because we have dinner and mail. Good news, I've been getting two milks and that shiz made me feel way less hungry. Like I might actually get to 140. My goal is 154, because I love the number 54, plus there is 154 days in a class cycle at MCA. I didn't really participate in OA today because I was drawing this trippy picture. I was pretty sad while drawing it. I started thinking about K and my dad's basement. I remember she came over and we just laid in this bed my dad had in the basement for some reason and listened to music. She messed me up pretty good. We had a real good lunch today. The good thing about us being hungry all the time is that when I get out of here, my diet will be completely reset. I plan on eating whatever I want except for candy, but under the condition I have to work out everyday. I want to continue to wake up at 5 AM as I was able to get a lot of stuff done. I plan on doing that most days, reading daily, I wanna keep up with a journal and eventually I want to get a membership at the Y. My big priorites are to stick to the self improvement grind, enroll in online college and keep up my job at subway.
March 2nd, 2020
7:24 AM
Right now I am sitting on the floor, waiting for Ms. Cavender. I was going to hold off on writing because I saw her come through the door. It freaks me out that there is a world outside this place but I'm really excited to get back into it. It's weird to think that all my life I took so much for granite and now I am here. Not forever, but it feels like it. It's already March 2nd, so I'm pretty pumped about that. Tomorrow'll be March 3rd and someday soon it'll be April. They've already started yelling at us about how "we've been here for two months." The next grading period ends 3/19 which is crazy to believe. The progress dates are always perfect to look forward to. Like they really make you feel like you are getting somewhere and to be fair, we have gone a long way.
8:41 AM
We are in Ms. Chidester's class, we just got our progress reports. Believe it or not I actually got 4's in most of my subjects, I even got a 5 in WIN. Honestly, I love that program. Really good news, we're doing a test that sets our baseline for the TASC next period. Mr. Chidester said it essentially registers us for the TASC test. They start testing at Week 15 which makes me very happy because that's only 6.6 weeks away. My arm is sore a little bit, I've been drinking milk. Turns out your only supposed to only get two milks during breakfast. My bad. We have hospitality today, which I'm excited for, I hope we don't miss out on mail, but we probably won't. I'm really waiting on my mom to send me something, I sent her three letters. I want to let her know that I'm doing better and that I started working out again. When I get homeI'm gonna finish this thing called Lift 4, I'd always slack off on it.
9:42 AM
The hardest thing on the test was the stuff I was learning when I quit school. That's what they told us, that the TRA was just the hardest questions on the TASC. I'm really excited to get home, there's so much stuff to do but I won't care to do it because I'll be home. I wonder if I'll start drinking energy drinks. I'll probably start drinking with my buddies, beer counts as a grain. But I don't know, I should probably refrain from smoking. It's crazy to think when I get out of here I'll be an adult. Not a man, I wonder consider myself a man unless I join the military. Honestly, if I were to join the army that'll be my ultimate act of self destruction. My arms are still very tired, I actually enjoyed PT this morning, we did a lot of pushups and ab work outs. Those are my favorites. When I get home and I get a gym membership, I'm going to work on my pecs, because I hate having a sunken chest. But lately when I look in the mirror, I look kind of buff. I remember when I got my YMCA photo I had a nicotine buzz about an hour before that and my dumbazz thought getting a nicotine buzz was the same as like a DMT trip, so I texted this girl I had a crush on about it - trying to impress her. I'm an idiot. I miss last year, I didn't really waste it - I just had a lot of fun doing nothing. The thing about last year was I was so caught up in my depressing teenage angst that I never saw how much fun I was having. Me and Ronnie were always goofing off in class and it was great. Then me and this other group of friends would all vape on this and we were all addicted to nicotine (especially the middle schoolers). Not something to brag about but it was pretty fun. I miss my Juul, I bought it from [redacted] for 25 dollars. The next week I bought my first pod, it was a vape pod - strawberry and it was amazing. It wasn't as good as the one I bought the week after, which was an original mango juul pod. There was a lot of good times back then.
5:50 PM
We just had dinner, it was chicken corden bleu. My favorite, however I had to rush my food because I didn't know where any of my stuff would be when I came back to the gym. I came back to a lot of letters on the floor, but I don't think any are for me. I think I'm real anxious and overwhelmed. I guess I'll never find out whose mail it was. Things are going to hell at the present moment. My platoon won't shut up. They never seem to be able to be quiet. Zurgil and Vance haven't got their mail, but it seems at some point they'll give it out to them. Everyone acts stupid all of the time which usually I'm fine with, however
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