It is currently 4:43 PM. I got fairly drunk after my last entry. I also got fairly drunk on November 22nd, 2025. As previously mentioned, I was depressed this week - I've been going through a break up with someone I knew for a short time and believed I had a future with. This sort of sadness is one that is akin to the fear of the unknown that HP Lovecraft utilized in his eldritch horror, however, in this instance, the sadness stems from the unrealized potential of what could've been. A candle that burns twice as bright and what not.
Anyway, I state this information to say I was not in the best frame of mind. I had saw my grandma during the morning of the 22nd, we went to Gabe's and Goodwill and Steakescape. We had Buffalo Chicken Fries with Ranch and they were very good. I had talked about JFK's assassination, specifically, I like to hear my grandma talk about the announcement over the school intercom that happened on the actual day (November 22nd, 1963). My grandma was 9 when that happened. I'm not much of a history buff, but I do tend to ask people about that sort of thing. My grandma (mom's side) says that following the assassination of JFK, students were sent home. My grandpa on my dad's side says that they weren't sent home but they were informed and the school's flag were lowered to half mass. That sort of thing interests me. I made it home around 1 PM and took a nice long nap. I awoke at about 3:30 PM when my step dad arrived.
My step dad wanted to cheer me up so we had plan to burn some boxes however, at some point his phone and fell from his hoodie pocket and to this day we have not found out. After about 2 hours of looking for it we decided to burn boxes. At this point, I was very intoxicated. Early in the day I had asked a friend to see if my ex had sold or gave my pink guitar away. This friend had said they did. Anyway, I decided I would ask my ex directly because I was very drunk. My ex, who I'll call K from this point forward, was very sweet regarding my drunken antitics. She had not given away my guitar, and we ended up talking on the phone. She is doing well, and I spent the night watching the fire after me and her's phone call.
I woke up at around 7:27 AM on November 23rd. I felt fine. I did not regret my decision to text and call my ex as she has seems to have become a lot better of a person. I don't want to illustrate the details of our breakup but she seems to be doing well. I did not go to church on November 23rd, I instructed my grandma to tell the congretation that I was depressed and me and my girlfriend had broken up - my congretation had just met said girlfriend a week prior so I wasn't too thrilled about the prospect of the whole congretation asking me about her/what had happened to us - because honestly I don't know what happened to us. I read a little of my book - Slenderman by Kathleen Hale. It's a very good book. From here, I spent my day relaxing - I took a nap and then proceeded to go to band practice.
On Tuesday I went to Silverdale Studios and did some college work. Taco Bell has a new disgusting steak poblano burrito. I can not pronounce poblano. I scheduled to see K the following day. I won't lie, I was excited. My emo band blue shell is currently moving practice spaces and I was waiting for Seth to arrive to unlock Silverdale. Seth was late due to a car issue. Funnily enough, he had stopped on the way to the studio because he heard a bad noise coming from his car - he believed it was his axel or his radiator. In reality it was a flat tire, which I pointed it. Luckily 3/4's of Blue Shell know how to fix a flat tire/ change a flat tire, so I believe Seth's car troubles have since been figured out.
Wednesday was the last day I had to work before Thanksgiving break, which is nice. I worked and then proceeded to see K. It was nice to see her after so long. I bought her and her mom some flowers. Her mom did not seem to be mad at me. I bought K some tiger lillies that hadn't yet bloomed but I do believe she will take care of them. I played guitar for a while and it was honestly very nice. She is very pretty and I'm glad to be back in contact with her. I still like her quite a bit. For the time being, it's nice to just flirty and wholesome with her - I don't want to jump the gun on anything and I also don't want to ruin her progress she's made in the past year, because she has certainly become a very self reliant individual and I am proud of her. I am also still on the dating apps and in the throws of my most recent breakup.
Thanksgiving was fun, I had a very good time. I saw my mom's side of the family it was very enjoyable, we had some good food. My uncle (mom's brother) was actually very talkative and I enjoyed talking to him. I was only at my dad's house for an hour to drop off my sister - they had already ate Thanksgiving dinner. I was home by 3 PM. I spent Thursday evening transcribing my old MCA journals. At some point I started a minecraft stream and lost all my diamonds while on the phone with my friend Mel, I most likely would've lost all my diamonds anyway, but that was most likely the most fun way to have lost all my diamonds.
Friday was a decent day, I transcribed my old MCA journals in the morning and then I took a nap. From there I had my tattoo appointment with Journey. It went very well and my tattoo looks very cool. Snowing reposted my tattoo, which I was very appericative of. From there I went to my friend Dave's parents house and we played Flip and Scatergories. It was very fun and I was so glad he invited me. I feel asleep with my shirt off.
Today has been a lazy day, I have not done very much. I went to my grandma's house and had the rest of the pumpkin pie and we finished the album it will come out on December 12th. I am very sleep now and I am going to bed. Goodnight.